Gad
damn it! What to do? I am technically still with Nina, but its not cheating.
However, it would be against the law, but it’s not. I’m not hurting anyone, but
it is disrespectful and it is pretty shameful. Roy stood in the midst of a moral dilemma. It will increase my stamina, so I’ll be
stronger, yeah that’s it. He
had come to a conclusion. I’ll do it,
I’ll peep on women.
Once again Roy sat in
the centre of his room, that time there were no candles or incense, just him,
in the dark room. What if no one is
taking a shower or bath?... I’m so stupid, I could just see through their
clothes.
Roy lived in a safe
neighbourhood, having little to no crime. Though he did not see them as it,
there were many attractive women on his block. There was a single college
student next door, a newly wedded couple across the road and a dozen or so
teenagers his age.
Roy concentrated and
soon his vision expanded. Who to choose
from? I know, let’s try that cute blonde at the end of the road. The blonde was one of the
teenagers Roy’s age.
His vision drifted out
the window and down the street. At the end of the road, on the same side as
Roy, sat a small house. In that house lived a husband and wife with their
seventeen year old daughter.
He crept through the
front door as if someone might see him. The first room, empty, as was the
second. On the third and final he found someone. She must be gone. Look at this, the mom is not that bad, I guess.
In the bed lay the girl’s mother and father. Slowly he started peering through
the top covers, then through her night gown. That is truly disgusting. Roy thought, as he saw her pendulous
breast and acarpous gentiles. Let’s move
on.
The next target was the
couple across the street. Only one light was on, evidently that was the target.
He floated in and there on the bed the two were partaking in coitus. Fuck yeah. He viewed from various
angles. Damn it! I can’t do anything, I’m
so horny. I bet my dicks hard enough to cut glass. They stopped anon, the
man quickly fell asleep and his wife went into the shower. Roy followed her.
This will be it for tonight. And he started to the college girl’s
house.
But what he saw was
something that soon made him regret what he had just done, and shame filled
him.
She sat at a desk,
writing in a note book. Home work?
The words she wrote were that of the actions she had done that day. They
delineated the day, her day at school, and so on. But as she finished a
sentence on the last line of the page, she started to cry. Roy looked around
the room and throughout the house. No
pictures, nothing, this house
is just plain, empty even.
He turned his attention
back to her. She must be lonely. It’s
sad. Living here by herself. I’m sorry for this. Roy was back in his room,
but he heard something, again his vision reached passed his confines.
In her room, his mother
sat in bed and cried, or more so sobbed. People
are weak, and no one can go through this life alone. Mom, I’m sorry for how
I’ve been acting. Whatever the reason is for moving here, you know best. You’ve
been alone for so long, I’ll help you.
Roy
walked to his mother’s room’s door and spoke to her with the it still closed.
“Mom, you okay?” He asked.
“I’m fine.” She answered.
“No, why are you crying?”
She opened the door.
“It’s nothing.”
“Well I’m here for you if you need
me.”
“What’s with you? Why the sudden
change of heart?”
“It’s hard to explain.”
“Well if that’s all, then good
night.”
“Good night.”
They went to bed.
The next morning they
sat around the table, for the first time in quite some time. Roy ate cereal
while his mother drank black coffee.
“This job isn’t any better than the
last.”
“What?” He was puzzled by the
randomness of her words.
“This job pays the same as the
last.”
“Okay?”
“Aren’t you going to ask why we
moved then?”
“No, it’s okay, you don’t have to
explain yourself to me.”
Roy’s mother started to read the
paper, he watched her.
“A car accident killed
two, that’s a shame.” He heard his mother speak, but her mouth did not move.
“What was that?” he asked.
“What was what?” She
replied, “Did I just say something?” Again he heard her voice but her mouth did
not move.
“I thought I heard something.”
“Oh, okay.”
But as she continued to
read the paper, to Roy it was as if she was reading it to him. Mind reading seriously! Am I just pulling
this shit from my ass now! Well it’s not like it’s that far fetched I did just
awhile ago astral project, so it’s not that improbable. But why the randomness
of it? Well what am I asking why is something that defies all common logic
random, but still this is probably the most useful thing I can do now.
“Well I’ll be leaving now, see you
when I get home Roy.”
“Bye mom, see you.”
She left and Roy for the
first time, sat in the living room. Just
like with seeing I should be able to expand reading minds. Setting on the couch, he was
concentrating, trying to focus on the people around him.
But soon he focused on
to the mind of the girl next door.
I’m so lonely, just one, one person would be enough. I just can’t
handle this maybe I should... no don’t think that way. Why can’t I find
someone? Aren’t I attractive, am I really that bad to be around, am I really
that ugly... He stopped.
I can’t be doing this.
It’s wrong. But she needs help. What can I do? I know.
Roy
started to peer into her house. She was readying to leave. Her hair in a bun
and having a messenger bag in her hand.
I’ll
have to time this just right.
It was a plan of shear
perplexities. Using tactics, schemes, plotting and everything that should not
be considered in the happiness of another human.
Roy ran to his room, he
changed his clothes from pajama pants and a baggy shirt to a pair of shorts and
a jersey top. He grabbed his bag, a backpack, walking from his room he went
into the bathroom. He splashed his face with water and wetted his hair to give
himself that “just out of the shower”, look.
He stood in front of the
door, inside the house, and continued to watch as she continued to gather her
things.
Timing it just right,
she reached the sidewalk as he was in front of her house. They met. He dove
deep into her mind, and asked, “Could you give me some directions?”
“Sure
where is it that you need help with?”
Roy thought for a few seconds to
figure the proper destination. “Do you know where Waterfront Municipal College
is?”
“Wow, that’s so weird.”
“Why?” He asked in a coy
idiosyncrasy.
“I’m heading there right
now, I could walk you there if you would like.”
“Sure, I’d love that,
thank you so much.” He held out his hand, “I’m Roy.”
The girl grabbed it and
said, “Nice to meet you Roy, I’m Raven.”
Sorry Nina, what I’m about to say means nothing, I hope you can
understand. “That’s such a
pretty name. It matches you.”
Raven began to blush,
“Are you asking for directions or are you asking for a date?”
Shit! What do I say? I’m so stupid! This was a bad idea. But look at
her face, she needs someone. I’m sorry Nina this will only go as far as words. “Well I needed directions, I
wanted the other. What are you doing tonight?” Roy looked at her in what he
thought was a charming manner.
“So you are asking me out?”
“Yes.”
“Sure, how about six?”
“That would be perfect.”
“Well
see you tonight.” Raven started to walk away.
“Wait,” she stopped, “I still need
directions.”
“Just follow me or, even better,
walk with me.”
Roy walked with her down
the street. This is the most awkward
moment of my life. What am I going to do at the college? Wait! What am I going
to do tonight? Shit I have to think this over.
On their walk to the
college they were silent, Roy thought out his next move.
They arrived at the college.
“I guess I’ll see you
tonight.” Raven said as she started walking to the main building.
“See you Raven.” Roy
stood in front of the building. Let’s
find the library. He
started to look.
Roy walked into the
library. He was greeted by the librarian and then greeted her back.
They must not be asking me if I’m a student because I look like one.
Roy found a setting area and grabbed
one of the many magazines on a table.
Three hours passed and Roy started
to think. Why am I here? All I had to do
was walk her here. Well I guess I’ll be leaving.
That night Roy walked over to
Raven’s house, he knocked and waited for her to answer.
The door opened, Raven invited him
in, “Come in.” They walked into an empty living room, all that furnished it
were a rocking chair and a couch. Roy sat in the rocking chair and Raven sat in
the couch, opposite to him.
“Because of the short notice I
didn’t have anything planned but we can go out somewhere for dinner. What would
you like?” Roy asked.
“Anywhere is fine, but we don’t have
to go anywhere.” She replied.
Anywhere
that’s pretty vague, lets see. Roy
began to fixate on her mind.
Anywhere
really.
She’s
pretty open.
“I know of a little restaurant, I
haven’t been there but it looks nice.” Roy elucidated.
“That sounds great.”
“We’ll have to walk though.”
“That’s okay, a nice romantic walk.”
On their course to the restaurant
they talked and achieved a better understanding as to who the other was.
“So what are you going for in
college?” Roy asked.
“I’m in as a nurse.”
“Why not a doctor?”
“I think a doctor has to much
responsibility and they spend to much time away from home.”
“I know what your saying, my mom’s a
doctor. She’s barely home and gets stressed really easy but those things push
her to rethink the way she prioritizes things.”
“Your mom’s really a doctor? That’s
so cool. So what are you doing?”
Shit!
Got to think of something, but I don’t want to lie.
“Well I won’t be starting until the
start of the next semester, but I think I’ll do a little of this and that. You
know explore my options.” You are a
genius.
“That’s good,” She said, but changed
the subject. “So I’ve been seeing a lot of police cars in front of you house
lately, what’s up with that?”
It caught Roy off guard, Damn it! This is a tricky one. On one hand
if I tell the truth I’ll look like a hero first and an idiot second. But if I
tell her I paid a prostitute to call my girlfriend, this whole thing will be a
waste of time and it’ll end up hurting her more. Here goes nothing. “The
first time was when I beat the crap out of some muggers and the other time was
when I asked a hooker for change for a twenty and the police thought I was
buying drugs. On both occasions I wasn’t truly arrested, so I have a perfect
record still.” That was the dumbest thing
I’ve ever said, ever.
“Seriously?” Raven asked.
“Yeah, stupid isn’t it?”
“I think it’s quiet funny. Getting
change from a hooker. But what do you mean, you beat up some muggers?”
“There were these three guys mugging
this old woman, so I was like “Hey stop!” and they came at me and the next
thing I know is that they are on the ground, and a police officer has a gun
pointed at me. But in the end I was let go and called a hero.”
“Wow, that’s so cool did you get a
medal?”
“Nope, but I did get a police escort
to my house.”
They arrived at the restaurant.
A tall skinny man greeted them from
behind a small podium. “Welcome
sir and madam.”
“Hello.” Raven said timidly.
“How many will be being seated?” The
man asked.
“Two.” Roy answered.
“Very well then, please follow me.”
The man guided them to a small booth in the back of the restaurant. “A waiter
will be with you shortly.”
“Thank you.” Roy said as he sat
down.
The two sat opposite one another,
facing one another.
Before they could start talking a
young waitress came and handed them two menus. “What would you two like to
drink?”
“I’ll have just a glass of water.”
Roy looked at Raven.
“I guess I’ll have a cup of tea.”
“A glass of water and a cup of tea.
When your ready I’ll take you orders.”
“Thank you.”
“Your welcome.” She walked away to
the kitchen.
Raven and Roy opened their menus.
What
to get? I’m hungry, but if he wants to pay I don’t want to spend much. Raven thought as she looked at
her menu.
“Feel free to order anything you
want, money is not a problem.” Roy replied to her thought, as to reassure her.
“What do you mean?”
Shit! “Well you looked at me when I
ordered water like maybe you should order light. Don’t worry.”
“Oh, okay. I see. I thought maybe
because you’re a student like me, that maybe you didn’t have much money.”
That
was pretty straight forward. “Don’t worry. The way I see it is we only live
once so we might as well enjoy it. To think about such a minor thing as pieces
of paper, it’s just silly.”
Raven reached her hand out and
placed it on Roy’s. “I’m really glad you didn’t just want directions.”
Her words reminded him of Nina. Is this how Nina might have been. A strong
soul trying to live with the weight of the world on her shoulders, alone with
no one for support? I may have over thought about having to protect Nina. It
won’t be an external force that’s after her, it’s her, herself. I saved her
from her own darkness, what if she reverts back? Will her hope in me help or
hurt her? Damn it! Still, now I have Raven I have to help. I love Nina, but for
now she is safe, but Raven on the other hand needs somebody. Fuck what can I
do? Stop thinking! I have to stop plotting, stop planning, just plain out stop
thinking. I have to stop intruding on the thoughts of others. To Raven Roy appeared to be asleep or in deep
contemplation.
“Roy? Are you okay?” Raven asked.
It threw Roy back into reality. “I
was thinking about what I should think about.”
“That’s quite confusing.”
“I guess an easier way to put it is,
I was trying to organize my priorities.”
“Oh.”
“But I decided to stop thinking as
much.”
Raven laughed, “That’s funny. So you
just want to stop thinking? Why?”
“I learned that the more you spend in
your head the less you spend in real life and the more you plan for the future
the less you live in the present.”
Roy's words hit Raven hard, he had
not planned on it, but it hit her for the better. “You know, I’ll do that too.
I often think to much into things and all that is left when I’m done is
nothing.”
Raven and Roy proceeded to order
their meals. They stayed there until it closed and walked back.
Roy walked Raven to her door.
“I had a really nice time.” She
said.
“I did too. Your really nice and I
hope to spend more time with you.” He kissed her cheek, she started to blush.
Roy then added, “Good night.”
“Good night.” Raven opened the door
and walked into the house.
At Roy’s house his mother waited for
him.
“So, where were you?” She asked.
“I was having dinner with a friend.”
“A girl?”
“Yes.”
“You sure did get over Nina fast.”
“It wasn’t like that.”
“Oh really? Then what was it?”
“It’s just that she seemed lonely
and she really doesn’t have any friends or family. So I figured I’d hangout
with her.”
“I see, does she see it that way?”
“Sadly, no. She thinks it was a
date.”
“Why didn’t you tell her then.”
“She really needed it. I’ll play an
actor for now but I really don’t know what I’ll do.”
“Just don’t break her heart. Who is
the lucky girl?”
“You know her, that girl, Raven,
that lives next door.”
Roy’s mother was astonished, “She’s
older than you! She’s in college!” She was more surprised than anything.
“I know. Just if she ask so am I and
don’t mention Nina.”
“But...” She started only to be
interrupted.
“It’s not going to go any further
than words.”
“Just don’t hurt her.”
“Don’t worry.”
Roy walked to his room, he pulled
the picture of Nina out of his wallet. I’m
so sorry. He placed it back and then took his list out. A little late on this. Then removed the
word, “Read people’s minds.”
Weeks passed and school would be
starting in a month.
One day Roy sat in the college
cafeteria, he had decided to eat lunch with Raven. They continued their mock-up
relationship, Raven was happy and Roy figured he would deal with the problems
and its consequences when they arose.
Roy picked at his salad as he waited
for Raven to arrive. Finally she did, but she was accompanied by someone, a
man.
“Roy this is Lane, we went to high
school together.”
“Hello Lane.” Roy offered him his
hand.
“Hey.” Lane shook Roy’s hand. His
hand was anaemic and languid.
This
guy looks like a freak and weak, really weak.
“So is he like your boyfriend?” Lane
asked Raven.
“Yeah, we’ve been going out for a few
weeks, almost a month.”
“Oh.” He said lamely.
Damn
I wish I could read his mind, well I can but I won’t. I don’t want to be a
liar. But still this guy is a freak. Maybe I should fuck with him.
“Raven come here please.” Roy said.
She walked over, confused. Roy grabbed Raven and gave her a big drawn out kiss,
no tongue of course. Roy gazed up, Lanes face was contorted. I’m an ass.
“Hey, why don’t we get something to
eat.” Lane said, trying to spark a conversation, in hopes of stopping them.
“Yeah, why don’t you two get
something.” Roy handed Raven a fifty.
“Sure, do you want anything?” She
asked Roy.
“No, I’ve already ate.”
Lane and Raven walked over to the
line of various concession stands.
Why
do I have so much money? It’s not like I have a job, does mom give it to me?
Damn I’m so pathetic, I can read minds for God’s sake, hell I can even fly, and
I’m so oblivious.
Raven sat beside Roy and Lane sat
opposite to them.
“So Lane, what is it that you do?”
Roy asked.
“Right now I’m unemployed.”
“Did you just move here?” Roy had a
feeling of where it was going.
“Yeah Raven said I could stay with
her until I get on my feet.”
“Is that so?” Roy looked at Raven.
“Yep, we were pretty close in high
school, so its not like he’s a stranger, so it’s all cool.” Raven answered as
she started to stab into a piece of lettuce with her fork.
“So Roy,” Lane said in a
condescending manner, “what do you do?”
Roy shrugged off the way he was just
spoken to. “I’m a student, just like Raven. Lane,”
“Yes?”
“Have you ever been arrested?”
“No. Have you?”
“Well, its not like this is a
competition.”
Raven jabbed him in the side with
her elbow.
“I have been, technically, arrested,
but I was innocent.”
The conversation went on, but the
one thing that repeated in Roy’s mind was, She’s
letting him stay with her?
They walked home together, Roy
walked Raven to her door, and gave her a quick kiss on the cheek.
“See you later.” He said afterward.
“Good night, I love you.” Her words
pierced his heart.
Shit
what do I say? “I love you too.”
Roy went home and sat on the couch
and watched television.
His mother walked through the door
shortly after.
“So, how was your day?” She asked.
“The same as usual, what about you?”
“Not really interesting.” She walked
into the kitchen, “So what are you doing tonight?”
“I don’t know. I’m really tired, I
might just go to sleep.” Roy said as he kicked off his shoes.
“That’s too bad. I wanted to watch
TV with you.”
“I’m sorry, I’m just really tired.
Tomorrow we can.”
“Okay.”
Roy walked into his room and fell on
his bed. So sleepy. He soon fell
asleep.
An hour, or two, passed and he woke
up. I wonder what she’s doing. Roy started to concentrate, but he heard something.
“Please help! Please, someone!”
Roy could see what Raven saw. He saw
Lane over him, knife in hand, the blade coming down on him.
Roy felt a sharp pain in his side.
“Shit!” He yelled. He jumped out of
bed and ran out of the room. Roy ran down the stairs into the living room,
where his mother was sitting.
“What...” But Roy interrupted her.
“Call the police! Now! Do it!” He
continued to run out the door, outside.
His mother ran to the phone and
dialled 911.
“911 what's your emergency?”
“Please I need some officers and an
ambulance at my house.” She told them her address.
Roy ran into the house and up to
Raven’s room. He rushed through the door and saw her lying in a pool of her own
blood. Roy knelt beside her and tried to check her vitals. “Please,” no pulse.
He peered through her chest, her heart had stopped beating. “Damn it” he
started doing chest compressions. Then he focused on her mind, absent of
activity. “No! No! Fuck! Fucking God damn it!” He yelled.
The door shut behind him. Lane stood
in front of the door, knife still in hand. He swung the knife, the blade cut
across Roy’s back. I’ll kill him! Roy
stood, facing Lane.
“Why! Why would you do this!” Roy
yelled.
“Four years, I knew her and in that
time we went out, her legs never came uncrossed. She's such a cock teaser.”
Roy’s eyes widened, “Sex?! You did this for sex?!
What the fuck is wrong with you?!”
“The way she talked about you, she
made it sound like you were some kind of fucking god, but your just some
fucking bitch.”
“I’m going to kill you.” Roy looked
him in the eyes.
Lane made a lunge at Roy, the knife cut his arm. The
pain did not bother him, he parried with a punch to the face, Lane dropped the
knife.
“I didn’t trust you the moment I saw
you. I’ll tell you one thing, the pain you feel will follow you to Hell. I am
going to beat you to death.” Roy said.
Lane punched Roy in the face, but it
was not enough to faze him. He grabbed Lane by the throat and threw him through
the door. Lane’s body broke through the door’s thin plywood. Lane tried to
stumble to his feet, but Roy kicked him, throwing him down a flight of stairs.
Roy walked down the stairs slowly. He sat on top Lane, with his knee pressed
against Lane’s sternum. Roy started to punch, he punched Lane as hard as he
could. With each connection he could feel his knuckles break, but more importantly
he could feel Lane's bones breaking as well. His jaw broke from place and
shatter, his facial bones broke, the nasal cavity collapsed. Lane's face was
featureless, just a bloody swollen mass of flesh.
A cop rushed through the door and
saw Roy on top on Lane. With his gun drawn, “Stop! Put your hands up!” The
officer pushed Roy down and hand cuffed him. A paramedic followed and placed
Lane's broken body on a stretcher.
“He’s alive but in critical
condition.”
As they rolled him out, Roy ran
after him, still hand cuffed.
“I’ll fucking kill him!” Two
officers grabbed him, but they did little good. Roy continued to walk with them
on his back and around his legs. One of the officers maced him, but still he
walked. Finally the one with his arms around Roy’s legs used his taser. Roy
fell to the ground, the officers drew their guns on him.
They drove him to the police station
in full shackles.
Roy sat in a chair, bolted to the
ground, in a small room, with a large one-way glass window in it.
A officer walked in, he carried a
clipboard. “Why were you there?”
“I was there because that was my
girlfriend’s house.”
“Who was that other guy?”
“I don’t fucking know, some old
friend of hers, today was the first time I met him.”
“Did you kill her?”
“Why the fuck would I kill her!?”
“Well you did want to kill that
other man, why? Just wanted to get rid of the only witness?”
“Are you fucking stupid! Where the
fuck do you get that?”
“Not even two officers could bring
you down, what you take some LSD? Just wanted...”
Another officer walked in, the same
officer from before, the one that had driven Roy home those two times. “Donalds
that’s enough! Get the hell out of here!” Donalds ran out, handing him the clip
board which was then thrown back at his head.
Roy could see an identification card
clipped to the officer's shirt, it said “John Johnson” Roy’s mother followed,
she was crying.
Johnson walked over to Roy and
removed the shackles. “Tell me what happened, then we can get you taken care
of.” He said, setting next to Roy, his eyes transfixed on Roy’s hands. “Maybe
you should get checked out first.”
“I’m fine.”
“Roy maybe you...” His mother
started.
“I’m fine!”
“Miss Black why don’t you come sit
by me.” Johnson pulled a seat from the table. “Roy?”
Roy looked at him, “What?”
“Your mother told me everything.”
“What do you mean?”
“She told me what you were doing for
Raven. She told me about you moving here, about Nina. I’m so sorry for
everything that happened tonight.” Roy started to cry, he rested his head on
the metal table. “It’s okay kid, let it out. You did the best you could.”
Bang! Roy slammed his fist against
the table.
“I want him dead! I’ll kill that
bastard!”
“Roy don’t talk like...” But Johnson
stopped her.
“I shouldn’t tell you this but Roy,”
Johnson placed his hand on Roy’s head, “It’s not a good thing, but you did.”
“What? How?”
“Before I walked in, he was
pronounced dead. Severe brain trauma.”
Roy’s mother gasped.
“Good! I’d do it again. I only wish
I could.”
“Now that that is settled, can you
tell me what happened?”
Roy told Johnson everything that had
transpired, only leaving out the parts about him using his powers to see what
was happening.
When Roy finished Johnson said,
“Once you get out of the hospital, I’ll have you right a statement, sign some
paper, but I’ll make sure nothing happens. It was purely self defence, and
since you’re a minor, I’ll try to get it so you won’t have to go in front of a
judge or anything.”
“Thank you.” Roy’s mother said.
“Roy if you need anything, anything
at all just call me.” He handed Roy a small card, “The same goes for you, Miss
Black.”
“Again, thank you.”
Johnson drove them to the hospital
where Roy would be treated. Roy was correct about his fingers being broken, but
he did not know the severity of the cut on his back. By some miracle, the
doctors said, the deep cut did not bleed as much as it should have. It was deep
and stretched across the length of his back, requiring over a hundred stitches.
Roy stayed in his bed for the
remainder of the Summer, up until school was just a week away. The wounds were
not the reason, but it was his mind being at war with its self. If I would have just read his thoughts it
would have said something. But I just can’t invade on other peoples privacy,
but if I don’t who knows what they might do? I couldn’t save her. I just wish I
was with Nina. I miss you so much. School starts soon and I miss you so much. I just want to
hold you. But then his mind shifted.
I killed someone and I’m not sorry, I’m glad I did it. Nina what would you say
if I told you that, what would you think, would you still love me? I promise
you, I’ll never peer into your thoughts or anything like that.
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